Thursday, November 24, 2011

Counting My Blessings

Thanksgiving of 2009 was the last holiday that I spend with Chris. We hosted my side of the family and yes, he even helped cook. Chris was a wonderful cook. I loved that Thanksgiving day. I loved being in the kitchen with him cooking. I especially loved it when he would come up behind me, hug me, and kiss me. I was thankful for my life, for our lives and the life that we were building together. I miss him more than ever today. But, I am so thankful that he was a part of my life. Because of him, I have a whole new family in addition to my own. And I absolutely love them all. I consider his grandmother my own grandmother. I call all of his aunts and uncles "aunt" and "uncle" because that is what I consider them. I don't consider them in-laws. I also feel so glad to have another brother. His brother is a wonderful, wonderful person. They have welcomed me into their family and never abandoned me when Chris passed away. For that, I am so grateful and feel so blessed. The only regret that I have is that Chris could see the relationship that I have built with his family.

I am also so very blessed to have my own family. My father has been so wonderful to me this year. He has supported me in my goals and plans and even sat with me in some classes that I needed to take. Of course, my mother and I are close. I can't go more than a couple of days without talking to her. Who would have thought that we would have this relationship 20 years ago? I love my parents and feel like the most blessed person on earth because of them. I can't leave out my brothers and nephews and sister in law either.

 I am so very thankful for all of my friends. I have one particular friend that I have become closer to over this past year because of the loss of our husbands. I truly wish that we would have met under different circumstances, but unfortunately life is not fair. I have several widow friends that I have met since 2009 and I am so thankful for each and every one. I do not think that I would have survived in one piece without them. Of course I am so very thankful for all of my friends, I have too many to list who and why. Just know that each and every one of you hold a special place in my heart for a special reason.

Lastly, I am so very thankful for those people that have been supporting me and helping me complete my goals for my life. Even those that are doing nothing but praying for me, I want to thank you. My life may have been in shambles after Chris passed away. However, if it weren't for the love and support of all the people in my life, I wouldn't be able to rebuild and complete this one special goal that I have right now. I am truly blessed. So, on this Thanksgiving day, I am not going to look at what I have lost. I am going to look at what Chris has brought to my life.