Monday, November 8, 2010
So, I'm on 11 months now. I told Father K Saturday that I was "coping" and "learning to accept". Yet, I had few tears. Just two days later and I can barely function. I was working in an area where I was all alone. Just me and my iPod, listening to music that meant something to both me and Chris. I had a complete meltdown. I was crying so hard, I couldn't even breathe. I miss him, I don't want to live without him. Unless you have lost someone such as a spouse, you will not know how it feels. There is a complete void; not just in your heart, but in your soul and in your life. It seems like everything will bring either a memory or sadness because he will never experience it. I just don't see what the point to life is. Can someone please tell me?