Tuesday, September 14, 2010
I've taken a few days off from writing. I've reverted backwards. I'm back to that dark place that I thought was gone. I'm free of most of the anger and hate. I don't notice the killer's house when I drive down the street. I actually don't think about him hardly at all anymore. However, I can't get past the immense sense of loss that I still feel. I'm tired, I'm not sleeping. But, I am so very thankful that I have so many wonderful people in my life that have been holding me up and letting me lean on them. Yesterday, I was able to put it all aside and actually laugh without guilt. And I was introduced to some new music,and when I watched the video, I actually felt better. I thought that this is something that Chris would have totally loved. It wasn't his normal type of music, but I know that if he saw the video, it would have become one of his favorites. So, I thought that I'd share the video and hopefully, he can see it too.